After the death of DAP political aide Teoh Beng Hock, his wife-to-be Soh Cher Wei mostly kept her feelings to herself, until now.

She has set up a blog titled 'Don’t Say Goodbye', which carries only one posting in which he addresses Teoh, whom she married posthumously in a traditional Chinese ceremony on Aug 15.

teo beng hock funeral 200709 fiancee crying In the article entitled Am I happy?, written in Chinese, Soh ( left , file picture ) expressed to Teoh that they have both become pawns in a “selfish battle”.

“You are unlucky, so am I. We are unlucky to be picked as pawns. Strangely, we have been used as pawns in this selfish battle,” she wrote.

In the article, Soh also openly contemplates whether to live or die.

“If I don’t , all I can do is wait for my old age. After your death is avenged, I will be reunited with you,” said the 28-year-old schoolteacher, who is carrying Teoh’s child.

Contacted by Malaysiakini , Soh ( right )confirmed being the author of the blog but declined to elaborate.

Circulated on Facebook

Teoh was found dead on the fifth-floor landing of Plaza Masalam, Shah Alam nine-floors below the Selangor Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC) office where he was interrogated from 8pm until 3am.

facebook on soh cher wei poem 240909 He was a witness in MACC’s probe on alleged misappropriation of state funds by Pakatan Rakyat state reps. Teoh is an assistant to Sri Kembangan state assemblyperson Ean Yong Hian Wah.

Currently, a coroner’s inquest is underway to determine the cause of Teoh’s death.

Numerous DAP leaders when contacted said they were unaware of the blog and declined comment.

Since the article was posted yesterday, it has been discussed in popular social networking site Facebook.com and been widely circulated.

Readers also left comments on her blog, urging her to be strong.